SO, I was four when this song was embedded into my consciousness... older than three [not a Monarch] but younger than five... guess daddy had big plans for his little girl. WHO knew it was Vienna?
Mom chose this as the theme song to her second wedding #BERLIN
What can I say? with a father who wiretapped the feds [ABSCAM] and a mother, who well, was traveling the world... shit... my dad even wired the living room.
I'll never forget the time he was "interrogating" my sister about her after school activities. After asking her three times what she did after school [and receiving three versions of the same lie] he enetered EXHIBIT ONE: IRREFUTABLE EVIDENCE: A TAPE RECORDED AUDIO-TAPE [OF HER NOT SO INNOCENT ACTIVITIES]
HE PLAYED IT ON SURROUND SOUND SPEAKERS IN THE FAMILY ROOM [THE KITCHEN WAS WHERE HE HELD 'TRIALS'] AND MY SISTER'S SECRET WAS EXPOSED! SHE WAS NOT STUDYING FOR THE SAT's SHE WAS PLAYING WITH DAD'S LIQUOR COLLECTION INSTEAD, "to your room and think about what your punishment should be" he said quietly. Of course that was irrelevant. Dad's house; dad's rules [Dad's liquor] and Dad's law. Judge and Jury. WIRETAPS!
WIRETAPS EVERYWHERE-- I set them myself in my own home. Habit I suppose? Monkey see, money do! *WINK*
NO WONDER SPIES ATTACH THEMSELVES TO ME.
NOW HOW DO i GET THEM TO LEAVE? IT'S EITHER THAT OR *PAY ME* FOR THE VALUABLE INFORMATION i ACQUIRED FROM THE TIME i SPENT RUNNING INTERFERENCE TO KEEP AMERICA OUT OF THE LINE OF FIRE [AND TRUST ME... GO BACK TO 4/22/11
SEARCH THAT NICE LITTLE CIA DATABASE YOU PEOPLE REFER TO AS FACEBOOK AND YOU WILL FIND I DID MORE THAN MY SHARE ONCE I REALIZED I HAD ADMIN PRIVILEGES TO THE 'INTELLIGENCE COMMUNITY' A NOT-SO-AMATEUR GROUP OF SPY AFICIONADOS ON FUCKBOOK. I MADE SOME CHANGES.... BOUNCED A FEW PEOPLE WHO EXPRESSED ANTI-AMERICAN SENTIMENT [RR, MARI, all links to those i knew to be on the terror watch list... quite a hefty list]
I PUT PEOPLE I TRUSTED ON EQUAL FOOTING WITH MYSELF WITH FULL ADMIN PRIVILEGES TO BAN, OVERRIDE OR JUST KEEP A RUNNING TAB -- A FEDERAL JUDGE, A PROFESSOR IN LAW, A REPRESENTATIVE, COUNCILMAN, ONE OF MY DAD'S BEST FRIENDS...
I LOADED THE DECK WITH PEOPLE WHO WOULD KNOW WHERE TO DRAW THE LINE... UNTIL... LULZ CAME ON BOARD. [actually they were on board the whole time... they just didn't make it personal until... well... can't be sure... but it WAS personal]
GODDAMMIT, I WISH SOMEONE [USE PROMIS, DAMMIT] WOULD TAKE A FINE TOOTH COMB AND GO THROUGH THAT FUCKING FACEBOOK PROFILE AND YOU WILL SEE... AS MUCH AS I WAS A TARGET I TOOK HITS I DID NOT DESERVE BECAUSE... WELL, BECAUSE LIFE ISN'T FAIR.
BUT I BOUNCED PAKISTAN FOR A DAMN GOOD REASON!
That's when I noticed everything [and I do mean EVERYTHING] I said, posted, tweeted, or blogged including youtube faves was being cross-posted in Russian and a few other languages]
that's the daily dose for now... sorry for the cap lox and any typos... didn't see this one coming.
PS HAVEN'T TOUCHED LINKED IN OR FACEBOOK SINCE I REALIZED I WAS IN OVER MY HEAD... JUNE -JULY WHEN THE CIA, FBI, SOCA AND PENTAGON WERE HACKED, BUT CHECK QUICKLY... I FEEL AN ITCH TO GO CHECK IT OUT... OR PUT DOWN A TAKE DOWN NOTICE SINCE I LEARNED MY WALL WAS COMPLETELY EMPTY THE WEEK AFTER MY BIRTHDAY.
AND SLAP THAT MOTHERFUCKER WHO TAGGED ME IN 63 PHOTOS-- HE'S A SPY TOO!
Hasta la bye bye,
Just me,
@ELyssaD™
PROTECTED BY COPYRIGHT USPTO AND DMCA [SO HANDS OFF]
over and out!
This town is colder now, I think it's sick of us
It's time to make our move, I'm shaking off the rust
I've got my heart set on anywhere but here
I'm staring down myself, counting up the years
Steady hands, just take the wheel...
And every glance is killing me
Time to make one last appeal... for the life I lead
Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can you see what I see
They're trying to come back, all my senses push
Untie the weight bags, I never thought I could...
Steady feet, don't fail me now
Gonna run till you can't walk
Something pulls my focus out
And I'm standing down...
Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, you don't need
What you need, what you need...
Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be
Oh, do you see what I see...
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