Friday, April 30, 2021

DailyDDose (c) April 30, 2021 COVID

April 30, 2021 

My dad told me to clean my room. 

It's not like I have a backdrop of loaded guns on zoom like Don Jr. cuz THAT would be weird. 

I'm still looking at desks and table to do work on. 

I've been trying really hard to get organized but it's very hard for me. 

When Rose is here tomorrow or Sunday I'm going to lift the glass on my night table and clean the wood cuz it's very yucky. 

I moved a little bin next to my bed because I cannot reach or see the night stand due to my neck and back surgeries. 

I don't expect that to change according to Dr. Urakov. So rather than me adapting to the furniture, I have by I adapt the furniture to me. 

That's NOT so difficult to grasp. That's why we have the ADA and accessibility mandates. 

I want to get a rug / mat for the living room. My feet are terribly blistered and bruised from going out in my broken shoes on Tuesday. 

I have an appointment with the Podiatrist on Tuesday, May 4 and that's where I bought the shoes last year so I will get another pair. 

Cleo sleeps with me but I've placed her litter box on the balcony and then brought it in when it rained. 

I ordered her a new one with a cover that will be here today. 

I've completely rewired the TVs and internet.  Dr. Pottash asked me about this because he was pretty impressed and he told me how his wife was in the hospital for a month when she gave birth and the cable went out so he called the head of the hospital. 

I told him how the TV went out when I was in the hospital and when I spoke to Gram and said, "the whole neurology floor has no Comcast" she said, "ooh.. good. Just like home!" and made me laugh. 

Anyway, it's taking some time. But I'm getting there slowly. 

I'm sending Karen the invoice from Miami of all the modifications they made that she threw out in her haste and she will have to replace them. It's that simple. 

My meds are stabilized now for the most part. My pain is pretty severe and my hands have lots of pins and needles and numbness. 

That is all very normal after neurosurgery. And I still have considerable spasticity and "jerky" hand and arm movements. 

I am doing Thai Chi so that my movements are more natural and fluid. 

The doctors are trying to get my pain under control but my insurance company keeps denying any interventions so it looks like I just have to do the best I can until I switch Insurance Companies during open enrollment next October. 

I've switched psychologists / psychotherapists and I think my new one is a much better fit. 

She doesn't take my insurance but the only one that does has a two year waiting list and I got tired of waiting. 

I'll send more pics as I get more settled. 

I got COVID a little over a week ago. I am coughing and have a very sore throat but I got both vaccines and as promised, I got sick but I did not have to go to the hospital and die!! 

Isn't science amazing?? 

Love you all, 

Liz 


Elyssa Durant
Research and Policy Analyst

Wednesday, February 10, 2021

DailyDDoSe Update

DailyDDoSe © February 10, 2021
Update 11:22am 

... 

There are rumors that flying TVs are raining down outside of Mar-a-Lago. 

I'm literally right here and I can confirm that isn't true. And shame on you for thinking Donald Trump could even lift a TV!! 

There are news crews outside and I already took my morning "walk" so Baby Penguin 🐧 and I are totally chilling with a HUGE sandwich waiting for THE TRIAL to begin. 

We have chips, we have dip... we have MASKS because we are not idiots. 

"We" waited FOUR years to see justice!! Don't forget, I was on LOCKDOWN when Trump tried to do a photo op from MY hospital room and I kicked them out. 

Yeah, so what if I got a Secret Service lockdown. 

Big. 

Fucking. 

Deal. 

Life is good. 

CONVICT TRUMP!! 



-- 
Elyssa Durant Research and Policy Analyst

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DailyDDoSe © February 10, 2021

DailyDDoSe © February 10, 2021

Things are very noisy here with the construction but I'm doing well. I'm going back to Miami for a week for some neurology testing but it's nothing to worry about.

I'll just pack my penguins, take the outfits Gram got me and go for a few days. I'm thinking of it like a vacation so hopefully I'll get some answers about the muscle spasms, pain and swelling on my head and neck now that we have ruled out epilepsy.

Things are quiet over at Mar-a-Lago. I try to go out every morning to sit by the water and always keep an eye out for suspicious Russian yachts, submarines and helicopters!!

Hopefully the next big event will be when they arrest Trump and take him away.

He belongs in prison. Are you watching the Impeachment Trial? The defense is ridiculous! I wonder if dad is rolling his eyes up there in New Hope??

I asked Dad if there is ANY amount of money he would take to defend Trump and he said "NOPE!"

I know everyone deserves a good defense but Trump needs to rot in prison for all he's done.

I take it very personally because I feel that I would have received better healthcare if Trump wasn't spending all our money on wasteful projects that I feel comes directly out of our pockets through healthcare, education or whatnot.

We certainly didn't win any prize with DeSantis and certainly not with Rick Scott or Marco Rubio.

So here we are. I hope you're well.

I love you,

Wednesday, January 27, 2021

DAILyDDoSe January 17, 2018 ©️ 2021 Falling Angels

Remember when I made this for you?

January 27, 2018. I told you I would be like a guardian angel to you and your offspring. You may not see me there, but I would always bee looking out for her.

I thought I was doing you a solid, looking after your most precious "commodity" you were leaving behind.

I planned all her birthday special gifts to be sent from YOU after your passing.

All of it done anonymously.

I think It's time to cancel that. I had the very best of intentions but you and your wife never did see that.

I even called to see if I could donate a healthy A+ kidney anonymously.

They said no. They needed proof that I knew ypu.

Your wife stirred up such a commotion at Mt. Sinai they were getting random donors and that was not their protocol.

I didn't know what to say because toy you had already cut me out of your life and they wanted to know how often I speak to you and lied.

I told them were friends since the age of 15 and stayed close through college, high school, college and graduate school.

They asked when I spoke to you last and lied and said a couple of weeks ago.

I wanted you to have that kidney so you're could watch your little girl grow up.

I have no idea what happened or why they told you off the list but that's what altruism is all about.

You're wife should look it up someday.

Broken Wings

Cutting ties that bind.

Now neither of us can fly.

Wednesday, January 13, 2021

Fwd: Hackers Hit Hospitals in Disruptive Ransomware Attack - WSJ



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Hackers Hit Hospitals in Disruptive Ransomware Attack - WSJ

I was in the hospital on October 23, 2020 and I can assure you that 

Hackers Hit Hospitals in Disruptive Ransomware Attack

Government agencies, cybersecurity companies fear catastrophic consequences amid rising Covid-19 cases

The U.S. Department of Health and Human Services in Washington.

The U.S. Department of Health and Human Services in Washington.

Photo: Caroline Brehman/Zuma Press

By

in Washington and

in San Francisco

Hospitals across the U.S. are bracing for aggressive cyberattacks that could threaten patient care amid a national rise in Covid-19 hospitalizations, after security companies and the federal government warned that Russian cybercriminals had already hobbled operations at several hospitals over the past week and were targeting hundreds of others.

The attackers have disrupted hospital systems in Vermont, New York, Oregon and elsewhere within the past few days, deploying a type of malware called ransomware that infects computers...



/ed70

Saturday, January 9, 2021

Mental Health, Trauma and isolation after Trump Virus 🦠

Gee,  I heard the exact same words when I 22 years old and my  father put my incompetent, psychotic mother in charge and if I wanted to use the insurance I would have to have an evaluation and she would need to be present for all medical appointments. 

 So that going to a hard pass because  he is in effect saying that he doesn't care about my physical health and  thinks the "emergency" is all in my head. 

Now, just so are clear, I have had  quite a few psych evaluations and paid for them myself because I was so haunted and traumatized by these events that I wake up screaming every morning because the nightmares are so vivid and I am terrified to leave my own home. 

The nightmares became so horrific I was afraid to go to sleep and now it's 100x worse because I've woken up quite a few times without shoes, keys, my phone or my medical ID and no idea how I got there or why would they move me without my neck brace; communication devices or any form of identification so doctors know that's I have a severe spinal cord injury, autism and do not communicate well without my iPad and phone to write down my emergency contact info. 

I went through this 1000 times before and I been screaming at the top 🔝 f my lungs that I need a trauma therapist. 

My dad told me that I he won't support me and hung up on more times than I can remember. 

For crying 
For using too many words 
For panic attacks that I get each time I call him. 

I can't feel by hands again and I can't pour water without spilling it. 

I can't hold my  cell phone, turn the buttons of and on and I can't use my remote control or the Internet because it was never paired to my voice or TV. 

For "some" reason I'm the only person in the building who doesn't get emails about the construction or gas leaks and the neighbors complain about the noise and heard me yelling HELP HELP HELP for days until days or weeks later when Seth calls Karen to call an ambulance. 

The ambulance drivers know me and I don't believe they would transfer me without my "go bag" 

They also wouldn't transfer me to an locked enhanced COVID unit with NO medical ID band and refuse WATER, ICE or juice. 



/ed70

Saturday, January 2, 2021

Hackers Hit Hospitals in Disruptive Ransomware Attack - WSJ


Hackers Hit Hospitals in Disruptive Ransomware Attack - WSJ

I was in the hospital on October 23, 2020 and I can assure you that 

Hackers Hit Hospitals in Disruptive Ransomware Attack

Government agencies, cybersecurity companies fear catastrophic consequences amid rising Covid-19 cases

The U.S. Department of Health and Human Services in Washington.

The U.S. Department of Health and Human Services in Washington.

Photo: Caroline Brehman/Zuma Press

By

in Washington and

in San Francisco

Hospitals across the U.S. are bracing for aggressive cyberattacks that could threaten patient care amid a national rise in Covid-19 hospitalizations, after security companies and the federal government warned that Russian cybercriminals had already hobbled operations at several hospitals over the past week and were targeting hundreds of others.

The attackers have disrupted hospital systems in Vermont, New York, Oregon and elsewhere within the past few days, deploying a type of malware called ransomware that infects computers...



/ed70

Friday, December 11, 2020

Re: CDC Foundation Data Collection Opportunity


Do you know how badly I wish I could participate in this unfortunately my devices were all infected while I was in the hospital and on since I used to work with the CDC collecting data concerns me that there's a virus about the virus


 I am absolutely unable to get a secure connection to my physician or even to 911 Eno red zone


 I have complains about this multiple times I don't have filed official reports with Aaron and start however my medical devices on my iPhone and from now on about eight of them carry my medical data with that I will no longer reading the data so it does not record my biometrics and Fred's bed it to my physician or to the emergency as staff and I wake up and I am just dumbfounded at how this went and reported and I've noticed when I've been fighting about it and other people then Friday about it for years 



I was a member of the Obama transition team and we built the database as we knew it was going to bring me neither was this risk I never dreamed in 1 million years that I would be the one at the end of the day he sitting here still waiting for emergency surgery I hear a year after they took me to the emergency room and they still can't get me in and they can't get my labs because there was a mixup and they lost them


Every single check my tire I wake up and I don't know where I'm going to bed because I wear device that transmits information to my physician and then I go to sleep and something else tells you not to short in the wire and actually you know I wake up to a two weeks three weeks and it's terrifying to me that as much as it is I have documented not only in myself but in my clients as well that I would still be sitting here and I'm down I planned surgery they may have on each end of June it is now and December and I have not seen a physician other than just one
Every single check my tire I wake up and I don't know where I'm going to bed because I wear device that transmits information to my physician and then I go to sleep and something else tells you not to short in the wire and actually you know I wake up to a two weeks three weeks and it's terrifying to me that as much as it is I have documented not only in myself but in my clients as well that I would still be sitting here and I'm down I planned surgery they may have on each end of June it is now and December and I Still cannot get my labs from quest diagnostics because they had a mixup at the lab which is the day the bridge now I've been telling people about this for for five years and people laugh at me it's in the newspaper there doing the Covid test and they have a contract contract with the health department said if you're wondering why Florida ?? is so bad I have 1,000,001 reasons to tell you because it's now Friday afternoon I have no medication I have no way to get to get medication or and I haven't had medication since I left the hospital and then the hospital gave me the wrong medication

 We are nowhere near the end of the crisis  I was studying the stuff for 25 years OK where is this could happen I didn't think I didn't know about that you'll be a deadly virus but we need to be a problem but you have to understand we also anticipating that this would be a problem with genetic testing and eugenics and so forth so of course there's a problem because quest diagnostics wants to make sure that the babies up here and don't have the splitter that blood so maybe it's a good thing it was a mixup but needless to say right now I am extremely extremely sick and I keep going to the emergency room when all I need is three steady and not to be in a literally in a locked zone with no fresh air and your freshwater I mean everything is as bad as it could 
 But there are a few people who have been really really good today and he worked really hard to make me laugh so it takes me about 3 to 5 days that they have to cleanse my blood but I can't get out of my building to do it and when they take them out of the year it away in the ambulance by the time they get here I'm already unconscious and by then they just did Feres leave me there instead of long-term care facility on lockdown had no telephone no call but I had no medication no water I was going to two people who walked out of there alive

XBut there are a few people who have been really really good today and he worked really hard to make me laugh so it takes me about 3 to 5 days that they have to cleanse my blood but I can't get out of my building to do it and when they take them out of the year it away in the ambulance by the time they get here I'm already unconscious and by then they just did Feres leave me there instead of long-term care facility on lockdown had no telephone no call but I had no medication no water I was going to two people who walked out of there alive there aliveNow I'm using voice activation right now but I've been hacked so bad that my voice activation doesn't have no TV F address and I've had no connection for him from before the surgery since I did actually since I did a documentary about what it's like to live next to Donald Trump has to be surrounded by Russian 70s and Chinese spies I did a documentary and I look up 10 days later paralyze and they fixed it was that I walked fixed it twice but I still I still haven't received any treatment or medication since I left for that by my everything and my doctor is an a fabulous so how can you guys let this go so long without saying he does something is there something broke it in the system 

i've always always had an interest in coding adding a new technology because I knew  we needed to find a way to transmit information to people who speak different languages or maybe just have different abilities such as autism so I learn to speak sign language balance of her and learn to speak gently and I learn to scream

And even though people are tired of hearing me say the same thing over and over again I am tired of saying the same thing over and over again and what's worse is every time I documented by email he has hacked and I can't respond so I can't get in touch with my sellers I can't get in touch with my doctor I literally can't get out of my building because they are unlocked I said no and they won't ever take the limes don't let me through that is so serious and it's so serious it's even more serious now but yeah I'm sorry to talk to speak up about it I've always just been a quiet observer knowing that you know what was going on and Mom doing for other people but I'm the one who stuck

 I don't want to worry anyone I said this had I was I don't want to cause that they make a mess and I had to clean it up but I watch it I've been I've been screaming about that this is it that it was a crisis in January I literally need surgery immediately it's now you know in my forte the first appointment they had to see me is December 29 to test my blood to see if FIY my legs are so swollen and why am dehydrated and why there's a problem with my kidneys and what an awesome way to start at the first appointment is at December 29 and you know what it is it's a zoom conference and my zoom account was hacked and I have already gone through for iPhones for a android and another one that is in my family it is it it was back to work they were kind ofcI don't want to worry anyone I said this had I was I don't want to cause that they make a mess and I had to clean it up but I watch it I've been I've been screaming about that this is it that it was a crisis in January I literally need surgery immediately it's now you know in my forte the first appointment they had to see me is December 29 to test my blood to see if FIY my legs are so swollen and why am dehydrated and why there's a problem with my kidneys and what an awesome way to start at the first appointment is at December 29 and you know what it is it's a zoom conference and my zoom account was hacked and I have already gone through for iPhones for a android and another one that is in my family it is Not only concerned but they're furious because people are worrying unnecessarily and I can't communicate with them in a way that they understand because I kick it it's late but the doctors don't know how to code either so they don't know how to read that so I'm trying to find a common language that we can all speak it and I think this is a critical critical aspect of her talking about a worldwide pandemic


 We have to be able to measure I do the contact tracing and affectively precisely because when they say oh it's a little low it's a little house not that big of a deal well if that's the deal when I'm in the hospital I've attached Luis but when I'm home and now it's happening over and over and over again I mean eight and I know because I've gone through it myself so I've been documenting it and fill him in writing and they're quite a few people who follow and it this point I'm literally I have I don't know what else to do because I've already short circuited three devices Safe4 I have a new Sim card for second I touch a second I can find my DNA is the same thing it's in the DNA I have had the Killswitch have a virus


We have to be able to measure I do the contact tracing and affectively precisely because when they say oh it's a little low it's a little house not that big of a deal well if that's the deal when I'm in the hospital I've attached Luis but when I'm home and now it's happening over and over and over again I mean eight and I know because I've gone through it myself so I've been documenting it and fill him in writing and they're quite a few people who follow and it this point I'm literally I have I don't know what else to do because I've already short circuited three devices Safe4 I have a new Sim card for second I touch a second I can find my DNA is the same thing it's in the DNA I have had the Killswitch have a virus how are we going to fix this? 

Just to give you a perfect example of why am freaking out again it's just a Friday afternoon time is 2 PM had a fire in my first physical therapy evaluation was done supposed to be done yesterday that's like 23 bucks form it's too late I've already fallen multiple times I've already broken Editor asking if you times why are you spying bleeding and there's nothing I can do that because no one didn't want in my building seems to care about anything other than you don't keep in the building looking good for her to that they can impress the Trump people when they come down to YardSale and rented this app the


Just to give you a perfect example of why am freaking out again it's just a Friday afternoon time is 2 PM had a fire in my first physical therapy evaluation was done supposed to be done yesterday that's like 23 bucks form it's too late I've already fallen multiple times I've already broken Editor asking if you times why are you spying bleeding and there's nothing I can do that because no one didn't want in my building seems to care about anything other than you don't keep in the building looking good for her to that they can impress the Trump people when they come down to YardSale and rented this appSo I was able to vote because I anticipated that I might not be able to get to the election is in the hospital on election day is my birthday and it was the best birthday of my life so everyone's upset that they can't be with the family but you know what I'm just trying to let you know that a lot of us are going through the same thing as some of us want to get stronger and some of us why don't you just being one of the outline of the bullies to add their two week trust me I know the difference I know who's there for me I know who's not and if he's contacted me just to pretend like there is such an asshole

So I was able to vote because I anticipated that I might not be able to get to the election is in the hospital on election day is my birthday and it was the best birthday of my life so everyone's upset that they can't be with the family but you know what I'm just trying to let you know that a lot of us are going through the same thing as some of us want to get stronger and some of us why don't you just being one of the outline of the bullies to add their two week trust me I know the difference I know who's there for me I know who's not and if he's contacted me just to pretend like there is such an assholet

 Please help me so that I can help others because I went through this for nothing and no one hears about the kids and the clients that I had who actually called me it was the first that I saw when I woke up I didn't know where I was when I was contemplating taking my own life 

The bottom line is that Everett, was talking to Robbie but I couldn't speak and write out I couldn't write a house that didn't work and they were talking around me and they were separated was asking for certain things they said that they just said it was crazy I said I need water I need certain things and they try to give me medicine it was the wrong medicine and they kept doing it and I don't know I didn't even pay your medical ID badge and they didn't even scan it into the into the machine so I said I'm sitting here they discharge me OK here's the badger a shit and I'm sending this far in life because it's another Friday and I don't care what I have to do but I need people to know that this is what went wrong in 2020 and why so many people are dying 

The bottom line is that Everett, was talking to Robbie but I couldn't speak and write out I couldn't write a house that didn't work and they were talking around me and they were separated was asking for certain things they said that they just said it was crazy I said I need water I need certain things and they try to give me medicine it was the wrong medicine and they kept doing it and I don't know I didn't even pay your medical ID badge and they didn't even scan it into the into the machine so I said I'm sitting here they discharge me OK here's the badger a shit and I'm sending this far in life because it's another Friday and I don't care what I have to do but I need people to know that this is what went wrong in 2020 and why so many people are dyingI've been to the game live in flying Tiger lI fear the game aligned long time and it said Ava stuff since I was like 19 or 2022 as well I officially start now I come home to a house apartment where they throw my bike documents and my diploma and all of my original research because I have all of that stuff and all the data and all the desks from the CDC because we wrote it and I don't have to brag about that be someone special I just want to give the information forward to the people who need it so that because this is not gonna end up well for Ray either way I'm here and I'm broken and I can maybe I'll write again maybe I'll break it out alive but if I don't I'm OK with that too. 

I live in an area where they literally nicked the building next-door to me and they are now building 29 story Tower I come home I am right in the middle of it and all of the bagging at the electric customer apartment I can't get a radius is too much interference and I can't my body can't handle it and people keep coming in my neighbors don't want ice cream for three days three days and I passed out I woke up 10 days later to different hospitals I didn't know where I was at Goshi no ID no medical records they did not even tell me what my diagnosis was until after I got released from a lock down the nursing home in a Covid unit at That was over a month ago so basically every time they discharge me I'm supposed to immediate care and immediate follow up but no one gets here don't worry it's not an emergency well everyone say it's not an emergency it's not an emergency but if it's a Friday fit in it becomes an emergency because now and I have to wait till Monday or Tuesday so now I'm trying to make peace in my head that we're doing this again and I'll do it the hard way and it's gonna hurt but I'll sit there in my bag feet were bleeding and they're infected and I caught a staff and I go to every couple of weeks that they every time there's a holiday or a weekend and I had to be end and this is been going on for years for a couple years now the system is overwhelmed And so am I because as hard as I am trying to get people the information that they need to know what went wrong with the original test or that we knew what happened or how it spread this is the place to science it applies to both Tauruses play some medicine reply :-) it's all the same thing so the fact that I come home I get no signal so Aivri via justice I had to order a pad to order parts from China but he has a problem I can't feel my hands so I have moments where I'm very sturdy and the next thing you know I'm on the phone so I have a seizure and I I don't even have a phone here I don't have a phone I don't have a TV and it comes with the building so now that I am in so I can't make enough noise because I don't have anybody left I've been paying everything out of pocket 

And so am I because as hard as I am trying to get people the information that they need to know what went wrong with the original test or that we knew what happened or how it spread this is the place to science it applies to both Tauruses play some medicine reply :-) it's all the same thing so the fact that I come home I get no signal so Aivri via justice I had to order a pad to order parts from China but he has a problem I can't feel my hands so I have moments where I'm very sturdy and the next thing you know I'm on the phone so I have a seizure and I I don't even have a phone here I don't have a phone I don't have a TV and it comes with the building so now that I am in so I can't make enough noise because I don't have anybody left I've been paying everything out of pocket pocket

I've been denied Medicaid and Medicare because I was a government employee without with a passion and if you were charging your family administration not eligible for any covet relief so basically one way or another I'm stuck here so I'm going to make the most of it and if I'm taking too much of your time guess what I've been sitting here walking in circles I walked 3 miles out of bed and what else nothing but time so put this into a time capsule because I'm sure I'll get in trouble for it anyway someone could help me everyone yells me shut up you're crazy I don't care nothing but time






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On Wednesday, October 21, 2020, 2:14 PM, U.S. Department of Homeland Security <departmentofhomelandsecurity@messages.dhs.gov> wrote:

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CDC Foundation Data Collection Opportunity

On behalf of the CDC Foundation and supported by Deloitte Consulting, in consultation with the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention (CDC), we would like to welcome school administrators to be a part of a modern and ground-breaking data collection opportunity.

We are seeking real-time insights from you to identify practical solutions and strategies that can help schools during this COVID-19 pandemic. As part of this effort, we are inviting administrators to join a community of your peers for up to 3 surveys, all 15-20 minutes in length.

For community participation, you will be asked to complete 3 surveys over the course of a few months. For your time and 100% completion, you will receive a $20 gift card for completing each of the (3) surveys, for a total of $60.00.

Results will be used to both improve and inform technical assistance as is relates to school mitigation strategies, and thus, improve our future products to serve you better.

For any questions, please reach out to Kate Brouse, kbrouse@deloitte.com.

 

School administrators, click here: https://bit.ly/mitigationsurveys


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Wednesday, December 2, 2020

Edward Snowden: the whistleblower behind the NSA surveillance revelations | The NSA files | The Guardian

Edward Snowden: the whistleblower behind the NSA surveillance revelations | The NSA files | The Guardian


Edward Snowden: the whistleblower behind the NSA surveillance revelations

This article is more than 7 years old

Tue 11 Jun 2013 09.00 EDT

The individual responsible for one of the most significant leaks in US political history is Edward Snowden, a 29-year-old former technical assistant for the CIA and current employee of the defence contractor Booz Allen Hamilton. Snowden has been working at the National Security Agency for the last four years as an employee of various outside contractors, including Booz Allen and Dell.

The Guardian, after several days of interviews, is revealing his identity at his request. From the moment he decided to disclose numerous top-secret documents to the public, he was determined not to opt for the protection of anonymity. "I have no intention of hiding who I am because I know I have done nothing wrong," he said.

Snowden will go down in history as one of America's most consequential whistleblowers, alongside Daniel Ellsberg and Bradley Manning. He is responsible for handing over material from one of the world's most secretive organisations – the NSA.

In a note accompanying the first set of documents he provided, he wrote: "I understand that I will be made to suffer for my actions," but "I will be satisfied if the federation of secret law, unequal pardon and irresistible executive powers that rule the world that I love are revealed even for an instant."

Despite his determination to be publicly unveiled, he repeatedly insisted that he wants to avoid the media spotlight. "I don't want public attention because I don't want the story to be about me. I want it to be about what the US government is doing."

He does not fear the consequences of going public, he said, only that doing so will distract attention from the issues raised by his disclosures. "I know the media likes to personalise political debates, and I know the government will demonise me."

Despite these fears, he remained hopeful his outing will not divert attention from the substance of his disclosures. "I really want the focus to be on these documents and the debate which I hope this will trigger among citizens around the globe about what kind of world we want to live in." He added: "My sole motive is to inform the public as to that which is done in their name and that which is done against them."

He has had "a very comfortable life" that included a salary of roughly $200,000, a girlfriend with whom he shared a home in Hawaii, a stable career, and a family he loves. "I'm willing to sacrifice all of that because I can't in good conscience allow the US government to destroy privacy, internet freedom and basic liberties for people around the world with this massive surveillance machine they're secretly building."

'I am not afraid, because this is the choice I've made'

Three weeks ago, Snowden made final preparations that resulted in last week's series of blockbuster news stories. At the NSA office in Hawaii where he was working, he copied the last set of documents he intended to disclose.

He then advised his NSA supervisor that he needed to be away from work for "a couple of weeks" in order to receive treatment for epilepsy, a condition he learned he suffers from after a series of seizures last year.

As he packed his bags, he told his girlfriend that he had to be away for a few weeks, though he said he was vague about the reason. "That is not an uncommon occurrence for someone who has spent the last decade working in the intelligence world."

On May 20, he boarded a flight to Hong Kong, where he has remained ever since. He chose the city because "they have a spirited commitment to free speech and the right of political dissent", and because he believed that it was one of the few places in the world that both could and would resist the dictates of the US government.

In the three weeks since he arrived, he has been ensconced in a hotel room. "I've left the room maybe a total of three times during my entire stay," he said. It is a plush hotel and, what with eating meals in his room too, he has run up big bills.

He is deeply worried about being spied on. He lines the door of his hotel room with pillows to prevent eavesdropping. He puts a large red hood over his head and laptop when entering his passwords to prevent any hidden cameras from detecting them.

Though that may sound like paranoia to some, Snowden has good reason for such fears. He worked in the US intelligence world for almost a decade. He knows that the biggest and most secretive surveillance organisation in America, the NSA, along with the most powerful government on the planet, is looking for him.

Since the disclosures began to emerge, he has watched television and monitored the internet, hearing all the threats and vows of prosecution emanating from Washington.

And he knows only too well the sophisticated technology available to them and how easy it will be for them to find him. The NSA police and other law enforcement officers have twice visited his home in Hawaii and already contacted his girlfriend, though he believes that may have been prompted by his absence from work, and not because of suspicions of any connection to the leaks.

"All my options are bad," he said. The US could begin extradition proceedings against him, a potentially problematic, lengthy and unpredictable course for Washington. Or the Chinese government might whisk him away for questioning, viewing him as a useful source of information. Or he might end up being grabbed and bundled into a plane bound for US territory.

"Yes, I could be rendered by the CIA. I could have people come after me. Or any of the third-party partners. They work closely with a number of other nations. Or they could pay off the Triads. Any of their agents or assets," he said.

"We have got a CIA station just up the road – the consulate here in Hong Kong – and I am sure they are going to be busy for the next week. And that is a concern I will live with for the rest of my life, however long that happens to be."

Having watched the Obama administration prosecute whistleblowers at a historically unprecedented rate, he fully expects the US government to attempt to use all its weight to punish him. "I am not afraid," he said calmly, "because this is the choice I've made."

He predicts the government will launch an investigation and "say I have broken the Espionage Act and helped our enemies, but that can be used against anyone who points out how massive and invasive the system has become".

The only time he became emotional during the many hours of interviews was when he pondered the impact his choices would have on his family, many of whom work for the US government. "The only thing I fear is the harmful effects on my family, who I won't be able to help any more. That's what keeps me up at night," he said, his eyes welling up with tears.

'You can't wait around for someone else to act'

Snowden did not always believe the US government posed a threat to his political values. He was brought up originally in Elizabeth City, North Carolina. His family moved later to Maryland, near the NSA headquarters in Fort Meade.

By his own admission, he was not a stellar student. In order to get the credits necessary to obtain a high school diploma, he attended a community college in Maryland, studying computing, but never completed the coursework. (He later obtained his GED.)

In 2003, he enlisted in the US army and began a training program to join the Special Forces. Invoking the same principles that he now cites to justify his leaks, he said: "I wanted to fight in the Iraq war because I felt like I had an obligation as a human being to help free people from oppression".

He recounted how his beliefs about the war's purpose were quickly dispelled. "Most of the people training us seemed pumped up about killing Arabs, not helping anyone," he said. After he broke both his legs in a training accident, he was discharged.

After that, he got his first job in an NSA facility, working as a security guard for one of the agency's covert facilities at the University of Maryland. From there, he went to the CIA, where he worked on IT security. His understanding of the internet and his talent for computer programming enabled him to rise fairly quickly for someone who lacked even a high school diploma.

By 2007, the CIA stationed him with diplomatic cover in Geneva, Switzerland. His responsibility for maintaining computer network security meant he had clearance to access a wide array of classified documents.

That access, along with the almost three years he spent around CIA officers, led him to begin seriously questioning the rightness of what he saw.

He described as formative an incident in which he claimed CIA operatives were attempting to recruit a Swiss banker to obtain secret banking information. Snowden said they achieved this by purposely getting the banker drunk and encouraging him to drive home in his car. When the banker was arrested for drunk driving, the undercover agent seeking to befriend him offered to help, and a bond was formed that led to successful recruitment.

"Much of what I saw in Geneva really disillusioned me about how my government functions and what its impact is in the world," he says. "I realised that I was part of something that was doing far more harm than good."

He said it was during his CIA stint in Geneva that he thought for the first time about exposing government secrets. But, at the time, he chose not to for two reasons.

First, he said: "Most of the secrets the CIA has are about people, not machines and systems, so I didn't feel comfortable with disclosures that I thought could endanger anyone". Secondly, the election of Barack Obama in 2008 gave him hope that there would be real reforms, rendering disclosures unnecessary.

He left the CIA in 2009 in order to take his first job working for a private contractor that assigned him to a functioning NSA facility, stationed on a military base in Japan. It was then, he said, that he "watched as Obama advanced the very policies that I thought would be reined in", and as a result, "I got hardened."

The primary lesson from this experience was that "you can't wait around for someone else to act. I had been looking for leaders, but I realised that leadership is about being the first to act."

Over the next three years, he learned just how all-consuming the NSA's surveillance activities were, claiming "they are intent on making every conversation and every form of behaviour in the world known to them".

He described how he once viewed the internet as "the most important invention in all of human history". As an adolescent, he spent days at a time "speaking to people with all sorts of views that I would never have encountered on my own".

But he believed that the value of the internet, along with basic privacy, is being rapidly destroyed by ubiquitous surveillance. "I don't see myself as a hero," he said, "because what I'm doing is self-interested: I don't want to live in a world where there's no privacy and therefore no room for intellectual exploration and creativity."

Once he reached the conclusion that the NSA's surveillance net would soon be irrevocable, he said it was just a matter of time before he chose to act. "What they're doing" poses "an existential threat to democracy", he said.

A matter of principle

As strong as those beliefs are, there still remains the question: why did he do it? Giving up his freedom and a privileged lifestyle? "There are more important things than money. If I were motivated by money, I could have sold these documents to any number of countries and gotten very rich."

For him, it is a matter of principle. "The government has granted itself power it is not entitled to. There is no public oversight. The result is people like myself have the latitude to go further than they are allowed to," he said.

His allegiance to internet freedom is reflected in the stickers on his laptop: "I support Online Rights: Electronic Frontier Foundation," reads one. Another hails the online organisation offering anonymity, the Tor Project.

Asked by reporters to establish his authenticity to ensure he is not some fantasist, he laid bare, without hesitation, his personal details, from his social security number to his CIA ID and his expired diplomatic passport. There is no shiftiness. Ask him about anything in his personal life and he will answer.

He is quiet, smart, easy-going and self-effacing. A master on computers, he seemed happiest when talking about the technical side of surveillance, at a level of detail comprehensible probably only to fellow communication specialists. But he showed intense passion when talking about the value of privacy and how he felt it was being steadily eroded by the behaviour of the intelligence services.

His manner was calm and relaxed but he has been understandably twitchy since he went into hiding, waiting for the knock on the hotel door. A fire alarm goes off. "That has not happened before," he said, betraying anxiety wondering if was real, a test or a CIA ploy to get him out onto the street.

Strewn about the side of his bed are his suitcase, a plate with the remains of room-service breakfast, and a copy of Angler, the biography of former vice-president Dick Cheney.

Ever since last week's news stories began to appear in the Guardian, Snowden has vigilantly watched TV and read the internet to see the effects of his choices. He seemed satisfied that the debate he longed to provoke was finally taking place.

He lay, propped up against pillows, watching CNN's Wolf Blitzer ask a discussion panel about government intrusion if they had any idea who the leaker was. From 8,000 miles away, the leaker looked on impassively, not even indulging in a wry smile.

Snowden said that he admires both Ellsberg and Manning, but argues that there is one important distinction between himself and the army private, whose trial coincidentally began the week Snowden's leaks began to make news.

"I carefully evaluated every single document I disclosed to ensure that each was legitimately in the public interest," he said. "There are all sorts of documents that would have made a big impact that I didn't turn over, because harming people isn't my goal. Transparency is."

He purposely chose, he said, to give the documents to journalists whose judgment he trusted about what should be public and what should remain concealed.

As for his future, he is vague. He hoped the publicity the leaks have generated will offer him some protection, making it "harder for them to get dirty".

He views his best hope as the possibility of asylum, with Iceland – with its reputation of a champion of internet freedom – at the top of his list. He knows that may prove a wish unfulfilled.

But after the intense political controversy he has already created with just the first week's haul of stories, "I feel satisfied that this was all worth it. I have no regrets."

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